“The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
Lyssa (2009)
One of the biggest mother-daughter struggles that Alyssa and I have
encountered so far, happened approximately when Alyssa was between the
ages of 3 and 8 (age 8 because somewhere around that age, I finally gave
up). Looking back, I think that we both had strong-willed sides.
Often we would both loose in the argument, each of us disheartened by
our interactions together. What were our wars over you ask? Hair.
Yes, I hate to admit it, we fought over her hair.
If I wanted it curled, she wanted it straight.
If I planned ponytails, she demanded a pigtail.
If I wished for ribbons, she wanted barretts.
We always faced a difference of opinion.
The most memorable hair-moment, wasn’t too big of a battle face-to-face,
but there was a definite winner and loser. The day is firm in my
memory because it was the day of the children’s Christmas program at our
church, and I was helping direct the big affair. It’s every mother’s
dream, to see her baby girl shine on stage, looking as darling as can
be! So, the night before the big day, I had put sponge rollers in
Alyssa’s hair, to make her naturally straight hair full of cute curls.
Well, they must have not been so cute to Alyssa.
As I spent the afternoon at the church, making the final preparations
for the Christmas program, Ken helped by staying home to watch the kids,
keeping them out of my hair. Next thing I know, my dear hubby is
coming to visit me at the church, with a look on his face like something
was very wrong. He had to break the news that while he was watching
the football game, Alyssa decided she didn’t want the curls in her hair
anymore, and proceeded to dunk her hair in the bathroom sink. The cute
curls were gone. Alyssa had won.
In all seriousness, I look back and think some of our arguments over
hair were silly. It’s just hair. I would hope that if I were to do
those years all over again, I would be less intense at making sure
Alyssa’s hair was what I wanted it to be…especially on Sunday mornings.
Alyssa’s hair wasn’t what made her beautiful, it was her heart.
Now that Alyssa is a teenager, she is in charge of her own hair, and we
don’t fight over how it’s fixed. Whew. I hope that as she continues to
grow that she remains opinionated about what she finds beautiful for
herself, and that she stands confident in the beauty that emanates from
her heart. I’m not sure she knows how to respond when I compliment her,
and I also know that we all have things we don’t like about ourselves. I
pray that wherever she has doubts, or a low opinion of herself, that it
is replaced with a confidence in who God has created her, and that she
believes in her heart that she IS beautiful.
Christ lives inside her. What could be more beautiful?
Dear Precious Father, thank you for my
daughter, and for the beautiful girl you have made her. Inside, and
out, she shines of her Creator. She is fearfully and wonderfully made.
Not only is she beautiful on the outside, but I see beauty emanating
from who she is. Her laughter makes her face radiate. Her creative
flair brings out a confidence in who you’ve made her. She’s loyal to
her friends, a delight to little ones, and brings joy to her family.
Everything about my daughter shines a beauty. I pray, Lord, that she
believes in her heart that she is beautiful, and that she accepts the
way you have created her, even in the areas she feels inadequate. Lord,
I pray she never doubts her natural beauty, but also rests in the fact
that it’s what is on the inside that is most beautiful. She will be
most beautiful when you are living in her heart.